Feeling Lost With Drug Addiction
Drug addiction is a maze of mixed up emotions, a wild round-the-clock schedule, tension, arguments, loneliness, and confusion. You may not even really remember how you got here. You just know that somewhere along the way, you got lost. How do you go on from this point? Do you just stick with what you know, what your life has become? Do you ride this runaway train until it runs you into the ground, or is there anyone anywhere able to help you? After the way you’ve treated everyone around you, is anyone even willing to stick their neck out for you?
Lost In A Strange Land Of Drug Addiction
You wouldn’t blame anyone for not wanting to jump into the frey with you anymore. You’ve burned just about every bridge you’ve crossed with most people you know. You’ve tried a therapist or two in town, at the insistance of your family. You didn’t want to be saved from anything back then, and you sure weren’t going to talk about it with anyone. And even if they could help, would it even be worth it? What has anyone missed by you being zoned out with drugs for the last few years?
That’s just the problem – you’ve been in another universe for a long time now. At first, it seemed like a whole new world of adventure. Way better than real life with its misery and boredom. Drugs made you feel alive and like you had something to do. Now, after you need drugs just to function a little bit each day, you don’t know where to find any shred of usefulness in your life. This world you created with drugs may still be familiar, but it is also hell.
The Hell You Know Versus The Hell You Don’t Know
So now what? You’re lost in your own universe of drugs and you wonder if you’ll ever get out. And if you did get out, what is there for you? More family arguments, more realization of how worthless your life has become, and more emotional pain. Your family says you have to face these facts so you can move on, but you just don’t know.
Really, somewhere inside, you do want the pain to somehow get better. You don’t know how much longer you can stay lost in limbo like this. You’ve seen friends die and end up like vegetables after they’ve overdosed or just been on drugs for too long. That’s not really what you want, even as strong as your desire is to get away from pain. You don’t actually want to end your one shot at life. But you have gotten yourself to this point, and you are lost more than ever before.
Reaching Out And Finding Hope
You decide that even if you get rejected or laughed at, maybe you should try reaching out once before it’s too late. Before the drug addition pulls you down so far you don’t even realize what’s happening. Before that last hit takes your last breath away. Before you are lost for good. Maybe this time, someone will find you and help you find hope for tomorrow.
