Drug Addiction: They Just Don’t Understand
Everyone you talk to seems to think you’ve completely screwed up your life with drugs. Your parents, your siblings, your grandparents, your friends – everyone. The only people who seem to get it are other people you party with. They don’t judge you, they just let you do your thing and leave you alone. You’ve tried to keep everyone off your back, but let’s face it. They just don’t understand.
What would you tell them if you thought they would get it? Well, first you’d tell them that your life was already pretty rotten before you ever had a drop of alcohol or ever took a hit of drugs. That’s right, it was already soured by all the stuff they put you through.
Covering Childhood Pain With Drug Addiction
Your parent’s divorce – let’s start with that one. How much yelling and screaming can a kid take every day? It was bad enough that they yelled at each other, and it was worse that the yelling eventually trickled down to you and your siblings. Of course, your oldest brother became semi-in charge of the house with mom once dad left. Your younger siblings turned into whiny babies who got mom’s sympathy and worked on dad’s guilt. And that left you out there with nothing but anger and the bare naked truth.
You got a raw deal and no one would fess up to it. When you tried to talk about these problems, you always got shut-up or drowned out by everyone who had chosen sides and defended dear old mom and dad. So now when they get on their high horse and tell you that you’re ruining your life? Well, all you have to say is that they started it.
Dad’s History of Alcoholism
And let’s not forget how your dad started drinking more after he left. Whenever you went for your visits to his house, more often than not he was drunk out of his mind. You and your siblings had to take care of themselves more than he ever took care of you. Yeah, yeah, he’s sobered up now. Went to alcohol rehab and everything. So now he thinks he knows all about what you need? If drinking was good enough for him when things were bad, why can’t it be good enough for you?
You’ll stop when you’re good and ready, and right now you’re not ready. You want everyone to just shut up about what you need to do and take care of their own business. You didn’t feel nearly this important when all the bad stuff was going down, so why is everyone on your case now? Can’t they see how much this has to do with them? They don’t understand themselves, and they don’t understand you or your way of coping with it all.
Talking To Dad About Alcohol Addiction
Maybe sometime, you’ll drop the whole drug and alcohol thing. It’s getting harder all the time to keep it up. But if you go to drug rehab, it will be on your own terms. More than anything right now, you just know that your family really doesn’t understand you at all. Maybe there’s some hope talking with your dad, someday. He might be the only one who has a chance of understanding anything you’re going through.
